There are many forms of emotional abuse, neglect being one of them.
‘And all that you see
All that you taste
All you feel
And all that you love
And all that you hate
All you distrust’
‘Eclipse’ by Pink Floyd.
Human touch such a vital part of communication, but so often missing.
I do feel like I’d like to touch this image.
it’s also very ‘Dark Side of the Moon’ littered with crater like indentations!
‘Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me…’
Words from the song, Coming Back to Life from the album, The Division Bell by Pink Floyd.
Words by David Jon Gilmour
Deprive of positive human qualities.
"Brutal disciplinary methods and fear can dehumanize a person"
‘Won't hear a sound
From my mouth
I've spent too long
On the inside out
My skin is cold
To the human touch
This bleeding heart's
Not beating much’
Title taken from the song of the same name from the album, The Division Bell by Pink Floyd
I have two thoughts when I look at this image, how things appear and how they really are? As in ‘Beauty is only skin deep ‘ The other being, Boundaries from a psychological perspective. They can be very beneficial in a protective sense. However, they can also be very restrictive and stunting of freedom.
As well as preventing human communication and connection. A lack of boundaries and framework can leave one feeling vulnerable but for me vulnerability is an important part of human experience and mutual expression.
I’m reminded of the children’s nursery rhyme
‘Sticks and stones may break my bones
but words will never hurt me’
Which is another childhood lie, words do hurt!
The power of words and language can’t be under estimated and can be cutting, destructive, abusive and sometimes fatal.
Is a line from the song Shattered by The Age of Information written by David Hodges.
I’m reminded of times when I’d made attempts on my life.
When in a deep black hole no light penetrates nor any thought of others and the aftermath I would have left behind had I succeeded.
In the very corner of my soul there’s an altar to a different God
Fernando Pessoa
The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.
Fernando Pessoa
Title, a song by Gary Newman
One of the most difficult areas in my life, have been my intimate relationships with women.
Though the title may suggest or point the finger at the women, I can assure you, if they’ve ever responded to me ‘with claws’ I’ve driven them to take up that position.
For there is many a small betrayal in the mind,
a shrug that lets the fragile sequence break
sending with shouts the horrible errors of childhood
storming out to play through the broken dike.
From the poem, A Ritual To Read To Each Other, by William Stafford
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Without a moral compass, you may simply act per your own convenience, without taking into consideration what's better for others or society as a whole. People who lack moral compasses can be difficult to deal with because they often make decisions that will negatively impact those around them.
I think this may be true of some who were charged with my care when I was a child
Is the title of a song that’s had a number of musicians record it.
It also brought to mind a book ‘I Hate You Don’t Leave Me’ by J Kreisman and Hal Straus, the book is about, Borderline Personality Disorder and those who suffer with it, of which I’m one.
One of the characteristics is rapid mood swings and polarised thinking. Hence, one moment I/we may ‘Love’ someone and the next, ‘Hate’ them, all within a matter of seconds, depending on the trigger.
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The title refers to a question, of which there is no known answer.
Equally it could relate to my fathers personality of which there often weren't any known answers. Other than perhaps, my own belief that he suffered with PTSD, from service during WW2. Something so many must have suffered with without knowing or being supported.
Would you step into the darkness if invited? I doubt very much I would. And yet it may equally be safe, as unsafe.
Darkness, an interesting concept in it's many interpretations. As a kid I was scared of the dark, being the youngest I was made to go to bed first. I would never close my eyes until someone else had come to bed. Nor would I sleep with my face to the wall, always facing out, just incase the bogey man came.
Today the darkness I face, is that which resides in my own head.
This is the way, Step Inside. Is a line from the song, Atrocity Exhibition by Joy Division
I liken living with mental health complexity as being either possessed or having a virus spreading throughout my body that I have no control of.
As though something else is taking control of my actions in both thought and behaviour.